weird celebrity crushes?

Have you ever watched a movie and just found that one of the actors is really attractive not just because physically they’re gorgeous, but then the character they’re playing has a dress style or has their hair in the way you just like it, so you’re extra into them? And then you do a quick internet search and find that they look surprisingly different as themselves and secretly feel dissapointed, especially after quickly scrolling to their “personal life” section in Wikipedia and finding that they are straight, married and have children! Since accepting that I was gay, I’ve had many small celebrity crushes that just came and went after watching a movie or series. A couple months ago I was really into Paul Rudd (even though he’s much, much older than me, I know) and recently I watched a couple episodes of Teen Wolf and both Dylan O’Brien and Tyler Posey have turned my head on multiple occasions.

Also, this will probably relate more with LGBTQ+ members, but has anyone else noticed how many memes there are that you read and then think, what the hell, that’s exactly what I do? I understand that lots of people are alike and act similarly, but I always considered myself somewhat different and unique (not that it was necessarily in a good way), but the shocking number of random Reddit and Instgram posts that I completely relate with is clearly dissproving my theory of being an outsider. I think my favourite meme is probably one where Lisa Simpson is getting her cup filled with rainbow liquid called “that gay shit”, not only because I’d found it whilst literally doing what the meme was describing, but also because it was one of the first of many memes that I would discover spoke to my heart.

This is not my meme, I take no credit.

Anyway, thanks for reading and see you later.

John.

P.S. comment if you’d like a post about memes specifically, because I think it could be quite fun, but it’s really up to what you want to read.

i guess this is just a filler

First of all, apologies for anyone who was displeased or even offended by my last post, it may not have been the most tasteful… Today I don’t have much of a theme for what I want to talk about so I think I’ll just add in some extra details to previous ones that I missed, however believe are somewhat crucial. And I know what you’re thinking, “John, if they’re so crucial for the points you’re trying to get across why didn’t you mention them in the actual post?” My answer to you: I honestly don’t know, though it was probably either I forgot (uhh, so yeah they still are important) or I didn’t feel like sharing it.

The most important detail to a recent post where I spoke about crushes and school. I touched upon school and then crushes, where I briefly spoke of my latest crush. What I neglected to mention though, was that upon falling for him, I realised that he was the first boy that I had ever had a real crush on. I’d known I was gay for almost a year and had suspicions for many years before that, however never crushed on a guy before. In fact, remember when I said, “latest crush”? Well, by latest I meant the first since I was twelve (I’m sixteen now), when I had a crush on one of my at-the-time best friends who was a girl, so yeah, I don’t know what happened there, I think I just semi-forced myself to like a girl to the border of obssesion… Anyway, I guess that crushing for a boy for the first time and him being my first rush in four years opened up something inside me, but it’s not like that matters, I stopped that and you can find out more at that post.

This isn’t much of a post and I am sorry if that dissapoints you, I will try to do better next time. It would be even easier if maybe you could leave a suggestion in the comments, but that’s up to you. Thanks for reading.

John.

crushes and school – gay teen

So I wrote briefly about me starting A-levels this year and I cannot really remember what I said, probably something along the lines of, “EVERYTHING WE WERE TAUGHT LAST YEAR WERE LIES!!!” which still remains true, but then there’s also my stupid ass being dragged along the flow of theses new fast-paced lessons, drowning in the workload, and findng that most of what comes in one ear leaves the other. Yay. In case you couldn’t tell I just had a math test on the first textbook that we had to finish in 6 weeks and I realised a little too late that I was severly under-knowledged on basically everything, because I had to write an essay last night on bloody Van Arkel Triangles so had no time to revise the topics!

Okay – rant over (mostly) – I think I’ll just talk about boys for now instead of thinking about how school sucks and I have a double chemistry lesson in 10 minutes… I had a crush on a new boy that joined my school in the beginning of the academic year (so around Sept.), mainly because he was fresh meat and decent looking. 10 weeks later and I actually can’t stand him. He dropped math sets with me and initially I was thrilled because I still had a crush on him but then I got to know him a bit better, and he’s so annoying and immature and basically super stupid (the one thing we share in common).

Wow, this was a weird post, I can totally understand if you’re not impressed by the lacking in quality today but I will try to make it up to you next time, if you decide to come back… Anyway, thanks for reading 🙂

Love, John.